• Five Years Since

    Dear Mom: It has been five years since we said goodbye, that word you hate, the one that still gets stuck in my throat. There are days when it feels like it was last week and days when it feels like a decade has gone by. This is, usually, a season of joy and reclamation,… Continue Reading

  • For The Motherless or Unmothered

    I live at the center of an odd emotional Venn diagram that falls around this time each spring. I learned of my father’s suicide on Earth Day in 2010. My mother died from cervical cancer in early 2012. It is my mother who I miss most because insofar as I knew either of my parents,… Continue Reading

  • Opening Gifts

    There is almost nothing now that I want or need that I do not have. The gratitude I have for that is deepened and underscored by your absence. During seasons like this I wonder what you would have made of abundance. I like to imagine that where you are you know what it is to… Continue Reading

  • Learning to be Big

    I left work completely devastated and in a lot of emotional pain. I was in a season of severe self-doubt, mired in worry. This was about business, about a professional transition, but it was more than that. I was feeling like I was doing something and I had done something that is all too familiar… Continue Reading